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Fine Artist and Tea drinker
Install Theme

Snapshots taken yesterday. I’ve been through some body issues over the past few months, hence I haven’t really wanted to appear in front of the camera. Since I started running at the beginning of the month my body has changed slightly, and I am feeling more comfortable with it, so I took these. I don’t believe they stand as any sort of finished series, but perhaps serve as a beginning of something. I am fascinated by exploring how my body looks in photos, since I have real issues displaying any of it in person. In some ways I think that self-portraiture, whether it’s ‘finished’ pieces or just a tentative step in front of the camera in the spur of the moment, allow me the freedom to express and be unashamed of my body in a way that doesn’t require me to go through the terror of being naked in front of another human being in person.

The question I need ask myself now is what are these photos doing? What do they say to me? What do they express, and how can I move that forwards in to something more resolved?

Spent this afternoon shooting photos of myself behind that glass door in the new house. At the end I snapped this quick self-portrait in stockings and heels in front of it.

Spent this afternoon shooting photos of myself behind that glass door in the new house. At the end I snapped this quick self-portrait in stockings and heels in front of it.

This is the first self-portrait I’ve taken in a long while. I had the urge to take it this morning, which marks the return of my creative urges, meaning I am finally settled in my new place :)

This is the first self-portrait I’ve taken in a long while. I had the urge to take it this morning, which marks the return of my creative urges, meaning I am finally settled in my new place :)

Photos taken at the Simon Proffitt show ‘Something Happened’ at Un Deg Un in Wrexham

Update

Tumblr, I have been neglecting you for some time now. Things have been hectic in my personal and professional life this past month or two. I’ve moved house, there are changes happening with the place I work, I’ve had a gallery type show to sort out, I’m still getting over splitting up with my girlfriend, I’ve been up, I’ve been down…

With all of this I just haven’t had time to post things, or make things. I’m at a massive crossroads in my life, one where I will be making decisions based on what I actually want to do, and not what I think I should be doing. I figure my art will play some part in this, as will this blog, but what form that will take, I do not know.

I’ve recently been reading up on Buddhism, Taoism and Zen, and have found some measure of peace. I’m meditating more than I did, and it’s certainly calming me. I’ve also taken up running, and am aiming for my first half-marathon in May. I’m not doing too badly with the training so far, especially considering I smoke (something I will have to quit in the near future), and can already run about 3 miles without crying, walking or stopping to be sick. I’ve also lost some weight and toned up a bit due to the running, and am finally, for the first time, feeling like I don’t entirely hate my body :)

As I get more settled in this new house, and as the new academic year begins and I am back in work full time again, I am sure things will pick up regarding my art and this blog. Until then, just keep your fingers crossed that I don’t pack it all in :P

Another track I produced. Kind of a theme song of sorts

Taken while I was rather drunk at the Helfa Gelf opening night, because my friends said my bum looks good in those jeans, and they took a photo.

Taken while I was rather drunk at the Helfa Gelf opening night, because my friends said my bum looks good in those jeans, and they took a photo.

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I was asked yesterday to describe myself for the purposes of this show, and I didn’t know what to say.

Would anyone be offended if I called myself a queer artist?

My work is in this show, and I made the poster. If you can make it to Wrexham in North Wales tomorrow between 5PM and 7PM, come along, drink wine, see art, meet me :)
If you can’t make that, the show is on for the first 3 weekends of September. Come to it, tell your friends, it’ll be fun. I’m there… you know, you could have a cup of tea with me :)

My work is in this show, and I made the poster. If you can make it to Wrexham in North Wales tomorrow between 5PM and 7PM, come along, drink wine, see art, meet me :)

If you can’t make that, the show is on for the first 3 weekends of September. Come to it, tell your friends, it’ll be fun. I’m there… you know, you could have a cup of tea with me :)

One Mile

I don’t like it when people brag about achievements online, especially ones involving exercise, but I am going to be guilty of that myself now.

For anyone who runs, my time won’t be impressive or mean much, but for me it’s a major achievement. I haven’t run in 20 years, and today I did my first full mile (1.6km), non-stop, at a sensible pace. I did it in 11m 38s. Not fast, sure, not far, sure, but for someone who was 18 stone (252 Ibs) 6 years ago, smokes, who is lazy and afraid of people seeing them exercise, it’s an achievement.

I only mention this on here in case it helps other people. If I can find the discipline and drive to do this, something totally out of character for me, what’s stopping you from doing the things you want to do?

It’s not the time or distance that counts, it’s that I stopped believing I can’t do something, and instead decided to have faith in myself and believe that I CAN do the things I want to.

Have a beautiful day :)

Unused Out of Focus Shots, 2012
Browsing through my back up drive and I found these out of focus shots that I like. There is something strangely appealing about things not being in focus.

So, after a lot of prompting from some musician types I know, I’ve decided to upload some of the music/beats/tracks I have made.

I wear dresses, I have a beard, I drink tea, I make beats :D

Edit: Posted again, because I forgot the bloody link!
Ms. Amelia Stone Website
So, I finally got around to what I believe is the finished website for my alter-ego Ms. Amelia Stone. The site is a full archive of everything I have of her, and once I have moved house will get updated with new work on a regular basis. Please enjoy, please share, and if you post any of the work, please credit properly :)

http://www.msameliastone.com

Edit: Posted again, because I forgot the bloody link!

Ms. Amelia Stone Website

So, I finally got around to what I believe is the finished website for my alter-ego Ms. Amelia Stone. The site is a full archive of everything I have of her, and once I have moved house will get updated with new work on a regular basis. Please enjoy, please share, and if you post any of the work, please credit properly :)

http://www.msameliastone.com

Unused Photos from an Abandoned Project, 2014
These are photos from a piece I was making a week ago, but abandoned due to it just being far too dark and personal. It wouldn’t have been a good thing to complete it, and would have served no purpose to anyone other than myself. It was intended to be a composite photo of myself in my more feminine mode, and my masculine mode doing something… bad. The photos of the masculine side of me didn’t come out as expected, and were actually far too upsetting to me to want to work with. I was left though, with these reaction shots that I actually quite like. Since I am reacting to something off camera, it means you have to fill in the blanks, and I always like works that do that :)