Tumblr, I have been neglecting you for some time now. Things have been hectic in my personal and professional life this past month or two. I’ve moved house, there are changes happening with the place I work, I’ve had a gallery type show to sort out, I’m still getting over splitting up with my girlfriend, I’ve been up, I’ve been down…
With all of this I just haven’t had time to post things, or make things. I’m at a massive crossroads in my life, one where I will be making decisions based on what I actually want to do, and not what I think I should be doing. I figure my art will play some part in this, as will this blog, but what form that will take, I do not know.
I’ve recently been reading up on Buddhism, Taoism and Zen, and have found some measure of peace. I’m meditating more than I did, and it’s certainly calming me. I’ve also taken up running, and am aiming for my first half-marathon in May. I’m not doing too badly with the training so far, especially considering I smoke (something I will have to quit in the near future), and can already run about 3 miles without crying, walking or stopping to be sick. I’ve also lost some weight and toned up a bit due to the running, and am finally, for the first time, feeling like I don’t entirely hate my body :)
As I get more settled in this new house, and as the new academic year begins and I am back in work full time again, I am sure things will pick up regarding my art and this blog. Until then, just keep your fingers crossed that I don’t pack it all in :P
Another track I produced. Kind of a theme song of sorts
Taken while I was rather drunk at the Helfa Gelf opening night, because my friends said my bum looks good in those jeans, and they took a photo.
I was asked yesterday to describe myself for the purposes of this show, and I didn’t know what to say.
Would anyone be offended if I called myself a queer artist?
My work is in this show, and I made the poster. If you can make it to Wrexham in North Wales tomorrow between 5PM and 7PM, come along, drink wine, see art, meet me :)
If you can’t make that, the show is on for the first 3 weekends of September. Come to it, tell your friends, it’ll be fun. I’m there… you know, you could have a cup of tea with me :)
I don’t like it when people brag about achievements online, especially ones involving exercise, but I am going to be guilty of that myself now.
For anyone who runs, my time won’t be impressive or mean much, but for me it’s a major achievement. I haven’t run in 20 years, and today I did my first full mile (1.6km), non-stop, at a sensible pace. I did it in 11m 38s. Not fast, sure, not far, sure, but for someone who was 18 stone (252 Ibs) 6 years ago, smokes, who is lazy and afraid of people seeing them exercise, it’s an achievement.
I only mention this on here in case it helps other people. If I can find the discipline and drive to do this, something totally out of character for me, what’s stopping you from doing the things you want to do?
It’s not the time or distance that counts, it’s that I stopped believing I can’t do something, and instead decided to have faith in myself and believe that I CAN do the things I want to.
Have a beautiful day :)
So, after a lot of prompting from some musician types I know, I’ve decided to upload some of the music/beats/tracks I have made.
I wear dresses, I have a beard, I drink tea, I make beats :D
Edit: Posted again, because I forgot the bloody link!
Ms. Amelia Stone Website
So, I finally got around to what I believe is the finished website for my alter-ego Ms. Amelia Stone. The site is a full archive of everything I have of her, and once I have moved house will get updated with new work on a regular basis. Please enjoy, please share, and if you post any of the work, please credit properly :)
I am beginning to feel these days that this blog is very one-sided. By that, I mean I don’t feel like I am giving enough to the world with it. Sure, I am providing some sort of aesthetic experience for some, perhaps some minor degree of inspiration for others, but at it’s core I worry it’s all done so I can take love from people. I worry that the internet makes us desperate for likes, notes, reblogs and all that. That this all comes from a selfish place, a vain place of ego. I give with my work, but I feel that perhaps I am, in some way, doing it for the wrong reasons.
I wish to give more, and not take so much. A lot of you show me a lot of love, but I don’t do much to return that, and I want to change this balance. So, please, let me know what I can give. What can I do to help, and make this better for you?
Snapshot from last night. Myself and my friend Jen took some of my stuff over to my new place. We had a chance to play, and I finally tried on my leather kilt. Afterwards I was quite content and happy, and she snapped this shot of me curled up on my new bed, feeling quite joyous and comfortable :)